Negativity Cleanse

I needed a good cleanse.  Yes I may be already cleansing my body using Trader Joe’s Complete Body Cleanse and Nature’s Way AKN Skincare but I needed  more…I needed a spiritual cleansing.

Sage smudging cleanses your aura and the air.  Smudging helps clear the mind, body and spirit from negativity. This is a ritual that I utilize during change in seasons, going into a new year, moving into a new home or simply when faced with many challenges and much negativity.

I had experienced petty arguments, built up resentment and anger as well as stress and anxiety in the last few months.

It was time to finally let go.

I lit my candles, my sage and I sat in half lotus.

I followed this beautiful Smudging Prayer from Ayurvedic Therapist, Bess O’Conner:

May your hands be cleansed, that they create beautiful things.

May your feet be cleansed, that they might take you where you most need to be.

May your heart be cleansed, that you might hear its messages clearly.

May your throat be cleansed, that you might speak rightly when words are needed.

May your eyes be cleansed, that you might see the signs and wonders of the world.

May this person and space be washed clean by the smoke of these fragrant plants.

And may that same smoke carry our prayers, spiraling, to the heavens.

When I am in a hurry I utilize this short incantation:

“Air, fire, water, earth. Cleanse, dismiss, dispel.”

Of course I always end any meditation with prayer.  I thank God for his wisdom, grace and mercy every step that I take.  During this time I held my meditation incense and prayed for a while.

I feel cleansed and thankful.  Grateful for the ability to forgive others. Grateful to be able to forgive myself. Assuming the things that I have done and acknowledging the things that have been done to me.

My sorority sister bought all of us a book called,  Jesus Calling. A little one year devotional book. I have begun to read it daily.

These two messages have stuck with me this week:

Refresh yourself in the peace of my presence.

Be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

Excited for this new found peace and transformation.

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Clearing My mind Right On Time

My summer is officially over. I traveled, I worked out and spent time with family and friends. Now reality has set back in. I’m back at work teaching and giving my all.

That is why I usually hit rock bottom after a couple of weeks. I give my all. My mind, body and freedom is taken by work, workouts, family, organizations, hobbies, business and who knows what else.

I have always told myself to work and stay on top, because if I’m not on top I must be failing. In these last few weeks I’ve been going through a mental and physical change.

I am teaching myself to let go. Let go of trying to be the best, have it all, do it all, and attempting to be a glorified super woman.

I always hated that I was a loaner that no one knew. Now that I’ve had my moment in the sun, Im ready to relax in the shade. Far away.

Tonight I did a relaxation yoga. It was liberating. I wasn’t trying to be with people in a studio or master a difficult pose. I just wanted to breathe and relax. I was able to meditate for 10 minutes (minus the 5 seconds where my phone beeped to show me a low battery).

I feel happy. I feel. I want to work on reorganizing myself for the good. I feel as though many times in my life I have struggled to climb this mountain of junk and stress just to get to the top. I want to part with the junk and just handle each challenge as it comes with a clear mind.

Tonight’s Yoga Practice: (From Yoga Journal)

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P. S. I attended bikram yoga for the first time in New York. I hated it. It felt wrong and it felt untrue to my body. I felt like I entered a strange alternate universe of yoga that breaks all of the rules. Lovely studio. Strict yoga teacher and even stricter practice to yoga.

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Stress, Discipline, Self Control and finding myself amidst the mess

This has been a stressful few weeks. All first world problems, but in any event I am not myself.

I get angry easily. I lack sleep. I’m stressed. Im forgetful. Family problems, blah, blah, blah.

Oh how I wish I could get away from it all. Lol

I have been trying to participate in the 21 Day yoga challenge suggested by Yoga Journal. I missed one day because I fell asleep on the couch. I feel like Im losing control of myself. Perhaps I have too high of an expectation of myself. My mother told me to stop being a victim. I think I am a victim of my own mind’s worries.

I am working to regain my strength, focus, discipline and happiness. It can only start with my. I have some work to do on and beyond the mat:)

Weary and Anxious

So school is in session and already I am having anxiety, crying spells and worry. When I think of work, I fear long nights in my classroom, pains in my body, loss of my voice, headaches, musicals, plays, competitions, lesson plans, teaching, AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!

I left work at 7:20. I wouldn’t make it to yoga on time. I felt the anxiety rise in my body. I have this new positive force of yoga and relaxation and the. Work comes and ruins it! Why must work be the ruin? Why not my devotion to God be the work and work be the enjoyment in my life? Is it possible?

I am working to create a balance on my life. My mental self, spiritual self and physical self. I want to be able to juggle job, love, wellness and ambition all on one hand. Is it possible? I have been learning to be content. I have been wanting to get back into acting, but I am fearful. I fear I am no good, and I fear that I won’t be able to add it to my schedule.

I’m letting my fear overtake my faith. Fear of the demands of my job, fear of trying new things, fear of losing drive and discipline.

This evening I came home, finished an errand for work, looked up auditions, completed my yoga practice and prepared for tomorrow. I prayed for God to be with me and to take away my fears and anxiety.

I am studying the monologue of Nina from Anton Chekov’s The Seagull. Even when she mentions,

Oh I am so tired! If I could only rest….if I could only rest.

She ends her monologue saying,

I must bear my cross and have faith. If I have faith it doesn’t hurt so much, and when I think of my calling I’m no longer afraid of life.

I needed that advice.
Devotional
Reading: Matthew 11:28

Jesus said, “Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Yoga Flow

Moon Salutations (To be completed during the new moon, full moon, and waning moon since our energy is the lowest here.)

1. Salutation Seal
2. Heart Opening Pose
3. Lunar Standing Forward Bend
4. High Lunge
5. Nectar father Moon Flowing Vinyasa
6. Somachandrasana
7. Transition to Sahaji Ardha Malasana
8. Spontaneous Flowing Half Squat
9. High Lunge
10. Plank Pose
11. Melting Heart Pose
12. Spontaneous Flowing Cobra Pose
13. Bliss- Filled Downward Dog
14. Three Legged Downward Dog
15. High Lunge
16. Lunar Uttanasana
17. Standing Anahatasana
18. Anjali Mudra

(Repeat entire sequence on the second side.)

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